大清和後清無知的迴旋鏢

十三號杭州回來的路上看了一個嗶站節目：帝国如何被自己骗倒？统治者无知的背后，是制度在撒谎!，這幾天這個概念一直縈繞心頭。說的是大清，指的不就是後清嗎！邪教建起了防火長城，過濾牆外信息；在牆內用單一、宏大敘事宣傳洗腦，對於不同的聲音採取警告（俗稱喝茶)、刪帖、封號、抓人判刑乃至肉體消失等等舉措大興文字獄。這不僅搞壞了普通人的腦子，也把各級官員的腦子也搞壞了。而這些各級官員的升遷都掌握在上一級乃至幾級的領導手上，所以他們就會精準的向上敘事。所以飛鏢打出去，迴旋鏢又繞回來傷到自己。

另外，對於學歷更高，官位更大的人，他們能接觸到的真相就越多，理論上就會更清醒。但是對於位階更高的人來說，說話也要格外小心，他們需要在邪教意識形態的政治正確話語體系下表達觀點，以期自己的政治安全。因此，即使他們知道實際情況怎麼樣，也只會用黨國的單一敘事論述。

另外還有一個點，邪教的升遷之路競爭劇烈，因為一但上位權力極大，因此好處很多。所以這些蠅營狗苟的人都是非常的精明且自私自利。他們都是站在自身利益的角度上考慮利弊，所以迎合上級領導的喜好又比說實話重要。當社會普遍敘事被統編後上級官員也失去了多個渠道的信息來源，比如調查記者的深度追蹤調查，輿情的反饋，這時候下一級的向上敘事就影響力倍增。

還有我沒想到的原因，種種的體制因由，造就當下後清邪教黨國官員的認知水平越來越低，低到超乎常人想像。但是常人卻用另外一種心態來看待它們：上頭是知道的，上頭這麼做總有道理的。

盤串不如盤人

早上在城北體育公園做自然換氣法，途中遇到有一個人，騎著電動車，兩手戴著兩串棕紅色的大念珠，嘴裡叼著煙。他的電動車裝了兩個大喇叭，大聲放著驚爆的歌，從我身邊騎過去，我回頭看了一眼，車尾還貼了一面五星紅旗彰顯自己的愛國心。

路上，還碰到另外一個大爺，手上也戴著一串錚光發亮的串。我想，好像身邊盤串的人真不少：挺哥就對盤串很著迷，還送了我一串菩提子串珠；安福寺的常師姐也送了一串。醫院裡同事出來吃飯，不少人手上也戴著一串佛珠。有次上班閒聊和陳穎說起這事，我自嘲變成了中老年人，開始盤串了，沒想到她說也有在盤串，她女兒也在盤。回家問了予真，她說同學們也都在盤串，不過盤的都是十塊錢的串，還給我演示了盤法。

一路走來，我突然出現一個想法，這串的功能，無非是念佛時的計數器，唸一聲佛號撥過去一顆，唸完一百零八次就撥過去一圈。而念佛的功能，是讓人放下一切，把心意集中在念這聲佛號上，是專注訓練。當這項訓練時間長了，手上的佛珠也被磨的發亮，加上手上的油脂拋光，以及念佛時心念的持續投注，佛珠彷彿熠熠生輝、充滿靈氣。

那麼拋棄前面這一套實操，把手皮拋光當門技藝，每天挑一個時間出來，洗乾淨手，或者戴上手套，專門把佛珠每一個面都摸幾遍，目的是把它拋成鏡面，然後充滿成就感的在串友面前展示成果，我覺得這事挺好玩、好笑的。（好笑不是嘲笑的意思，是覺得挺有趣的。）

所以，早上我走路中我就冒出一個念頭，與其這麼盤串，還不如盤人。身體十二條正經是一條串，任督二脈也是一條串，縱軸、橫軸、交叉軸的筋膜鏈也是一條條串，這幾條串每天花幾時分鐘盤一盤，把他們盤的鬆柔、順暢，錚光發亮（氣血充沛的時候人看起來就是會亮一些），甚至據說氣血通暢，身體組織間的廢棄物代謝掉之後，身體還會發出香味。這樣投注心力來盤自己身體，不比盤外物划算嘛！ 

Healthy Walking

From the perspective of Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM), life depends on maintaining a state of dynamic balance. When a powerful external force disrupts that balance in a short period of time, life itself may be threatened. Even exercise, when applied too intensely or too abruptly, can disturb the body's internal equilibrium instead of supporting it. For this reason, I believe that truly beneficial exercise is not about constantly increasing intensity, but about repeatedly helping the body return to a balanced state through movement that it can comfortably tolerate and recover from.

The Natural Breathing Method is designed with this principle in mind.

Walk slowly with an upright posture. Allow the crown of your head to rise naturally while your spine lengthens with ease. As you walk, consciously release unnecessary tension in both the muscles at the front and back of your body, allowing muscular tension to become more balanced and the fascial tissues to glide more freely. At the same time, keep your attention on your breathing, your footsteps, and the subtle adjustments of your posture. Instead of letting your mind wander, gently bring your awareness back to your body.

As your body gradually returns to balance, your mind settles into balance as well.

This process of returning to balance is not a single event but a skill. Like any skill, it develops through consistent practice. Expecting dramatic changes within a day or two is unrealistic and contrary to the body's natural tendency to adapt gradually.

With thirty minutes of focused practice each day, you may begin to notice subtle changes within a week. After a month, your body may start establishing a new pattern of balance and coordination. With continued practice over the course of a year, many functional discomforts associated with long-standing imbalances may gradually improve, while your overall awareness of posture, movement, and breathing continues to deepen.

Diary

On Pensions and the Power Dynamic with the Party

During dinner, the topic of pension stability came up. One friend confidently argued that because pensions tie directly to public livelihood, the Party would never let the system collapse. In a normal democracy, that logic holds up. But under a totalitarian cult like the Communist Party, that’s another story entirely. Look at history: during the Great Chinese Famine, millions starved, yet grain requisitioning continued as usual.

It all comes down to leverage between the people and the regime. The Party will only continue honoring its pension obligations if the political cost of breaking those promises outweighs the cost of keeping the system going. If people accept whatever narrative they’re fed without critical thought—much like during the famine—the state has no incentive to pay up. They could simply let inflation erode the real value of pensions, while using propaganda to convince people that the system was still functioning. It’s not about promises; it’s about whether the public is immune to the regime’s propaganda and willing to push back.

The Core Paradox

This creates a paradox: the rights and benefits you enjoy exist because others fought for them, yet you turn around and look down on the very act of resistance that made them possible.

On Anti-Japan Sentiment and Systemic Memory

The conversation then turned to traveling to Japan, and he adamantly refused, claiming 'Japan is inherently bad.' I tried to unpack his logic: is Japan bad forever because of its wartime past, or is it bad today because of current geopolitics?

If it’s about past atrocities, it reminds me of Louis Cha (金庸). The Communist Party executed his father, yet decades later, when he met Deng Xiaoping, he treated it as something that belonged to the past. Ironically, the Party operates under the exact same authoritarian system and ideology today as it did back then. Modern Japan, by contrast, is politically and ideologically very different from the militarist Japan of eighty years ago. Its political system, governing institutions, and underlying values have fundamentally changed.